I feel no better today. Well, the writing went more smoothly, but how I feel about writing and about the book is as depressing as it was yesterday. Sigh. Roll on and on and on. I jumped and fixed a bunch of question grammar in dialogue spots. Yay that.
Today’s chapter brought to you by a lifetime of grammar mistakes:
More word shrinkage as well. In fact sort of massive today, though somewhat because I got sidetracked and dumped a frivolous scene from Chapter Two. (Because that’s what happens when I feel shitty about things.)
Word count yesterday: 124,044
Word count today: 123,419
Yikes! Writing is not like riding a bike. Getting back on again is hard. My mind feels sloshy. I got some beta reader comments back on a few chapters and–shock–I couldn’t process the criticism. Combine that with having to do this revision work, and it’s like I’ve never written anything before.
I hate writing. This whole book sucks. It turns out I’ve been punctuating questions in dialogue wrong my whole life. At what point did I learn that wrong? And how did I learn that wrong? It’s amazing I’m good at anything.
Fine, whatever. I “revised”, if I can continue to use that word, considering how likely shitty this is all turning out.
- Daron Chased and Sage’s Daughter.
I get the feeling the word count is going to drop dramatically because when I get pissy about writing I purge.
Word count yesterday: 124,044
Word count today: 123,846
Introduced more characters. One of them I love and one I don’t. Aha! And words are dropping like flies.
Word count yesterday: 124,218
Word count today: 124, 044
More easy work today. Had a bit of tricky dialogue that needed to be redone. But otherwise, there were only some pesky grammatical issues I found. The second part of the chapter, Aubrey’s part, had some subtle things happening. Kind of interesting, really. Maybe I’m getting interested in simply reading, rather than revising. Is that a good sign though? Hmm.
Word count yesterday: 124,374
Word count today: 124, 218
Not as much to update. Some middling work, but got through Chapter Seven. Introduced a couple of new characters (obvious from the chapter title). And the word count keeps going down!
Word count yesterday: 124,426
Word count today: 124, 374
Started Part Two today, and the beginning of Act Two. Got through Chapter Six:
- Waketee and Hanlon Caravan
Page count is going down! I think there will be some fantastic opportunities for pruning in these upcoming chapters, even if it’s bit by by, a hundred or so at a time.
Word count yesterday: 124,535
Word count today: 124, 426
I got just one chapter done today, but it completes Part One and Act One. I’m going to take a breather until next week after this. June isn’t going to be productive for me, as I’m going on vacation for the first time in several years. While I’m glad to be getting away, I feel some strange mix of emotions about leaving the writing.
It’s partly guilt, some sense that I’m letting myself down. It’s partly desperation, in that I feel like I’m missing an opportunity. If only I can get someone to read this, my door will open! Right? Well, we all dream. Partly writing becomes more important than anything else. It becomes an obsession. I suppose that’s unhealthy. I can’t tell. If it were my career, would that be the case? Maybe it still would be then too. If I were able to call myself an artist, what then?
The chapter today was:
- The East Road and Sage Hanlon
Act One is complete. Daron and Aubrey are on their separate paths. Fate compels them to make their choices. Now, Act Two.
Word count yesterday: 124,517
Word count today: 124, 535