Day 31: January 31, 2017

My penultimate scene strangely mirrors my writing. The main characters have come to the end of a long journey and find themselves in darkness. Something waits ahead, something unknown and maybe dreadful. Maybe wonderful. Maybe, as is often the case, both.

I know it sounds overly symbolic. It’s entirely possible my subconscious mind is taking too much control. But this feels like the story that needs to be told and the ending that needs to happen.  I had an epiphany as I wrote the scene about what they would find at the end of this dark tunnel. It caused an explosion in my head that will reverberate for quite a while. As I alluded above, I’m not sure if this discovery the find–that I’ve found–is wonderful or dreadful or both. That will depend entirely on the last scene, which I’m still mulling over.

I love to write exactly for this kind of thing. This book started as something else entirely, a journey of two people after a tragedy, one seeking revenge and the other compelled by love. Those elements are still strong, and an underlying theme about the nature of man’s relationship to god or at last the concept of god was always there. It has simply transformed as their journey came to life. All writers understand this, I know. But this story, in particular, has affected me in the way so much symbolism and the particulars of the journey were written by my subconscious.

It is when we, as writers, become readers of our own story, even as its written, that binds us to write. If I were a better writer, I could explain the feeling in more elaborate prose.

I wrote about 1,600 words today and almost finished chapter 44. I’ll finish that chapter tomorrow and likely start the last chapter.

Words written today: 1,556
Total for this manuscript: 103,709
Total for 2017: 24,780

Day 23: January 23, 2017

Almost done! I have a few more days of writing, I think, to finish the first draft of KINGDOM. I am struggling a little with how to tie up everything fully. Writing novels is sometimes an effort to untangle balled-up string, only to tie neatly again after.

Stephen King in his book on writing likened writing a story to an archaeologist unearthing an artifact. I find that analogy apt. There is always a story there and it always has an ending. As a writer, though, we must take care not to damage our find with forceful strokes. The ending we discover sometimes has flaws that we must mend.

In my case, there are some complicated, to me at least, ideas that I let run astray throughout the book. My instincts took me in certain directions, and I trust them, but now I must decipher what they were leading me to. I’ve managed to lay out each string neatly and begun to tie what I hope is a perfect knot to hold them together.

I realize I just totally mangled two different writing metaphors into one mess, but I’m in a hurry. Apologies. Plus I’m excited!

Including this past weekend’s writing, I finished chapters 40 and 41 and began chapter 42. Feeling like a good rush this week will finish it.

Words written today: 1,667
Total for this manuscript: 97,251
Total for 2017: 16,443